While fully understandable, as many of us have not been taught differently, looking at, and judging by appearances, is the fast track to insanity.

Spirit being all there is, fully and evenly present in every space, place, being, moment, and object, in any given moment, there is so much more going on than what our physical senses inform us.

In other words, we need to cultivate a higher seeing; we need to take on a higher perspective that allows us to see the bigger picture.

Join me as we explore the three pillars of trust, so that we may move through life in and with ever-expanding peace, joy, harmony, and wholeness. Regardless of any and all external conditions and circumstances.

I trust, as always, that this post finds you in Divine health, peace, harmony, and abundance.

Spirit Works Beyond Our Plans

Despite my initial intention to post here on the blog every week, it has been a little over three months since my last post.

And that is something that I have mixed emotions about.

On the one hand, I know that all is well and that everything is unfolding according to a perfect pattern and design. That there is a Divine meaning and purpose to everything. Even to this involuntary pause.

On the other hand, I do not like not honoring my commitments, and as a result, I am experiencing a sense of guilt and a sense of letting you (the readers and followers of this blog) down.

However, as God moves us with little regard for our own small and personal plans and time tables, I choose to witness, embrace, and allow the egoic shame and blame that I experience, to be what it is - and trust that All is well - even here and now.

My last post was written in a park overlooking the Atlantic Ocean in a warm and sunny Spain, where my family and I spent a year.

As we are now back in Sweden, the first draft of this post is being written in our apartment, in the chilly Swedish fall, with the rain pouring down from the cloudy sky outside.

It has been three months, but it feels like a decade.

The memory of me sitting in the park against “my” tree, looking out over the magnificent Atlantic Ocean, seems more like a vague dream than an actual memory.

We got back to Sweden almost three months ago now, and even though we were moving back to the country we have been living in for all of our lives, coming back proved more challenging than I could have ever imagined.

However, as this post is not about that particular journey and adventure, I will not go into much detail about that right now.

But while it felt as though we were being haphazardly tossed and turned upon first arriving back in Sweden, as a sense of normality and stability is now emerging in our lives, I can begin to see the perfect design and orchestration behind those experiences clearly.

Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Is Always Happening

This past week, I, for the first time coming back to Sweden, had the time to slow down, come to a stop, and just be.

And in those moments of stillness and silence, what I call “breathing spaces”, I could see the perfect preparation and unfolding that is, and always was happening.

For instance, I was able to become aware of a “chance” encounter 17 years ago that led to an on-and-off collaboration that has lasted over the years and that is now turning out to be a seasonal cornerstone of our new life here.

And the wonderful experience I had in Spain, where I virtually didn't need to work at all for that whole year, and how that has profoundly shifted my perspective and desires as to what I want my life to be about. In a dramatic contrast to the life I used to lead prior to leaving Sweden. A life where I worked “way” too much.

So while it is easy for us to judge our experiences as good or bad, to dwell on thoughts on what should and should not be, from a higher vantage point, everything is working for our Highest Good.

All of our experiences help us become ever-increasingly clear on the beautiful life we wish to lead. So that we can begin to articulate and describe that life, begin to feel it done and happening, and then witness and observe as it begins to take shape in our lives.

And all of this is happening, not always according to our desires and plans, but always happening according to a divinely perfect design and orchestration.

The Intention/Vision That Is Pulling Me

I know I have shared it before, but as it is becoming more and more prevalent and clear in my life, I want to share it again. The intention (which is now also becoming a vision) that is pulling me is to Live A Simple, Peaceful, And Quiet Life - Unbound By Time And Place.

I have had this intention for a number of years, but it wasn’t until we moved to Spain that I really and fully began to understand what it meant.

Before that, it was more an inner desire and longing for a life of and in stillness and quietude. But as I was blessed with the opportunity to spend my days and time in Spain pretty much any way I wanted, I now have direct personal experience of what this simple, peaceful, and quiet life really means. What it looks like.

I now have a vision, not just an inner feeling tone, of the life I want to have, and this vision/intention is allowing me to make choices that are more and in higher alignment with that.

I am becoming clearer in my Yes and what I need to choose and say yes to. And that clarity also allows me to become increasingly clear on what it is I need to say no to.

A case in point; just this week, I chose to step away from a project I initiated a few months ago, because of this increased clarity.

I realized that while this project would have been of great service and value to people around the world, moving forward with it was not in alignment with the simple, peaceful, and quiet life, unbound by time and place, I want to and need to lead.

I realized that committing to this project would decrease my sense of freedom, as it would add more responsibilities and obligations to my life, as well as more activities to my calendar, rather than clearing and cleaning it up.

And so, at this point, it was not in alignment with the beautiful life I want for myself.

All this to say, that I am profoundly grateful that I stuck with my intention to live a simple, peaceful, and quiet life for all those years, even when I didn’t really know what that meant.

And now, because of all of my previous experiences, I am perfectly prepared and positioned to expand my Yes to this intention that has now even become a vision.

And as I continue to say Yes to it, and as I continue to cultivate and hold the feeling tone that it is already done, that it is possible, and that it is happening now, Spirit and the Sacred Laws will beautifully and powerfully guide me along the path of its demonstration.

Moving Forward With This Blog

So what about this blog? Where does it fit into all of this, and how will it move forward?

My original intention for this blog still stands. I want it to be a personal sharing of my journey. I want it to be open, honest, and authentic. Vulnerable and relatable.

It is my intention to post at least once a week, combining written posts like this one with video posts.

I believe this blog will serve me very well in helping me bring clarity and insights as to how to move forward..

As I began to write about before we left Spain, money is a major key to me living this simple, peaceful, and quiet life, unbound by time and place.

Historically, I have traded my time for money, but in order for a new kind of life to emerge, my relationship with money, as well as my perceptions, beliefs, thoughts, and ideas about myself and money, will need to be upleveled and transformed.

It is my intention to use this blog as a journal of sorts, so that that healing and transformation may occur.

And while I am not seeking to make a big splash in the world, I know that there are so many individuals who are struggling with money and finances.

And so, while being in alignment with my vision and what I am moving toward, it is my hope and intention that this blog will serve others along their path to freedom. Financial or otherwise.

However, there will be one major change moving forward where this blog is concerned.

Up until this point, I have offered a free subscription plan and a paid subscription plan, with some content exclusive to paid subscribers. However, starting now and moving forward, this blog will be fully and completely free.

The paid subscription plan will still remain in effect, though, so that those who want to show and offer support may have the option to do so, either on a monthly or yearly basis.

But there will no longer be exclusive content for those who choose to subscribe to the paid plan.

In the next week or so, I will also begin to make the content that was previously exclusive to the paid plan available to everyone.

Two Main Takeaways

I think the main key takeaways here are:

1. To have a big vision, dream or intention for our lives. Something that we are consciously and actively moving toward, rather than just letting the world and external conditions toss and turn us in whichever direction they will.

2. To come back to that unconditional trust and surrender that is one of the Pillars of Freedom. To trust that even in the midst of seeming turmoil and so-called bad experiences, Spirit has not dropped the ball.

God is still here, God is still Good, and Everything is still working for our Highest good.

We can always trust that this Benevolent Loving Presence that is all there is and that always for itself is still sourcing, fueling, and funding us, still guiding, leading, and moving us according to our Highest Good.

We can still trust that even in the midst of this, perfect preparation and unfolding are always happening. That we are not able to see or understand it, let alone feel it, makes no difference whatsoever.

So rather than resisting and fighting against our external circumstances and conditions, we are always wise to embrace and allow that which is and continue to make choices that are in alignment with our big and mighty vision, dream, or intention.

We are wise to keep our attention on the good we wish to experience and allow Spirit to demonstrate that good in, as, and through us and our.

And to give perpetual thanks for everything in our lives.

All is Well Now, Always, and Forever.

Invitation

So the invitation for this post would be just that. For us to:

1. Ask ourselves if we are moving toward the good we wish to experience. Are we making choices and living our lives in alignment with that good, or have we strayed and are now headed in a different direction?

2. Become aware of where we are resisting or trying to fight against any external condition or circumstance.

Where are we holding onto thoughts and judgments as to what should and should not be?

Or in other words, where are we giving in to fear rather than trust?

And when we become aware of that, we are invited to ask ourselves what the story behind and underneath the fear is, which at the core always is a sense of lack or separation.

Once we have become aware of that, we can then begin to tell ourselves a new story. A beautiful story about all the good we wish to experience, not as something that may or may not happen in some future moment, but as something that is already here.

We tell that story, we give thanks for it, and we seek to take on the feeling tone that it is already happening.

So that the Sacred Laws may work through us to bring that into manifestation here in this dimension.

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And as always, I bless, bless, bless your day, and I bless, bless, bless your way, in the absolute knowing that All Is Well, that Something Wonderful is Always Happening, that Everything Is Working For Your Highest Good, and that Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Is Always Happening.

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I trust, as always, that this finds you in Divine peace, love, joy, and harmony.

So before we get to the actual post, I just want to say that, except for the final editing of the post, I actually wrote the bulk of it before I wrote my previous post.

But as I think this post so beautifully describes the messiness of transformation and how we can move through it, I thought I’d go ahead and publish this anyway.

Transformation Is Messy

Seeking to express itself in ever greater and grander ways in, as, and through each of us, God is always moving us into expansion.

Pushing us into the unknown, into ever larger spaces to give us room to grow.

These last couple of months, actually it hasn’t even been a couple of months, but only a few weeks, even though I feel as though this has been going on for a long, long time.

Anyway, these last few weeks have been tremendously expansive and transformative for me in terms of how I am moving through life and how I am showing up in life.

Hopefully, by the time this post is posted, I will have already posted a previous post about how I am being pushed and pulled into coming out as a spiritual teacher in a way that I have never come out before.

I have already shared a little bit about the financial transformation that is happening in my life, where a new financial structure or foundation is being put into place.

One that is more based on passive and residual income as opposed to trading time for money, which has been my main foundation for all my life.

And honestly, moving through these two transformational spaces has been a bumpy ride - as most transformational spaces are.

They are messy. They are turbulent. They are unpleasant.

There has been, and there still is, a great number of stories and beliefs that I need to release and let go of.

Stories about myself, and who I am, and what I have to offer, as well as around money, how money is earned, and where it comes from. And many other.

I have been tired. I have felt depleted. I have experienced doubt about how to move forward.

The ego has been screaming and shouting that I am insane and crazy to even think for a second that my life could change.

That publicly claiming to be a Spiritual Teacher is madness and that I am not only fooling myself but that I am bound to lead others astray.

As I announce myself in a greater way and thus will get to touch more people, I will end up getting them hurt and leading them into deep suffering.

“Who am I to think that this, first of all, is even possible, and second of all who am I to think that I have anything to offer”.

These are the kind of stories the ego has been screaming in my mind.

And at the same time, the mind has been incessant and relentless in trying to figure out how to move forward, how to make any of this happen.

Because even though I have had that deep inner knowing (and that is how my intuition speaks to me), that this is something I need to do, that this is the next step for me, the way forward has been anything but unclear to me.

Nothing To Do But To Keep Moving Forward

And so, I am so grateful that I have been through this so many times before. I am so grateful to know that this is only to be expected.

Just like the caterpillar literally needs to dissolve for the butterfly to emerge, and that dissolution is messy as the caterpillar first turns to goo, so is the transformation we need to go through equally messy.

There are all these mental and emotional structures that need to be dissolved for us to allow for the next version and expression of who and what we are to emerge. And this is messy.

Transformation is messy.

I am immensely grateful that I have had that experience before to lean on these last few weeks, or I may not have kept moving forward.

I am grateful to have that deep trust that All is Well, and that Something Wonderful is Happening, even when it feels as though I am dissolving.

Had it not been for that still small voice whispering that everything is as it needs to, and is meant to be - I most likely would not have dared or found the strength to keep moving forward.

And then, a few days ago, actually two days at the time of writing the first draft of this post, something shifted.

I had made the decision to honor this creative space I am moving into by getting out of the house each day.

Both my wife and son are at home all day as they are enrolled in online educational programs.

And I know historically that when I am in “my” creative space, I need to honor that space by giving myself time to be by myself.

And so, at the beginning of last week, I made the choice to leave the house for a few hours every day.

And so, on Friday, as I was sitting with my back against a tree with the beautiful sun warming my face and with the magnificent view of the Atlantic Ocean, I felt at peace in a way I hadn’t for a long, long time.

And the peace I felt and still feel, arose from an inner knowing that something wonderful is happening.

Even though I cannot yet see the wonderfulness that is happening, I feel it. And I feel it deeply.

I now feel it, whereas before, it was more of an intellectual knowing that it was happening.

I feel as though I have now been reconfigured, as though I have been transformed, upleveled in consciousness.

As I was in meditation this morning I even felt as though I was occupying a larger space than before. Like I had expanded.

I have arrived at a higher level of consciousness, and that level has now been stabilized.

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Out Of Chaos Coherence Emerges…

Kind of like the butterfly that has to squeeze its way through the cocoon to emerge in the world.

Or like the emerging seedling that needs to push its way through both the actual seed as well as break the surface of the soil - which is sometimes even made of concrete.

I feel higher. I feel as though I have moved into a new home, a more spacious and lofty home.

These last few weeks, I have been moving all of my stuff in, and there were boxes, and furniture everywhere.

And now there is a level of order.

There is congruence. There is coherence. The unpacking is done. The arranging of furniture is over.

And I am left with a level of serenity. A level of harmony that wasn’t here before.

I feel at home in this new space. This is where I now live. It’s like I have arrived.

Once again, I am so glad that I have experienced this before because that allows me to be prepared for what is to come.

I know that the world around me will now begin to shift and move in alignment with this expansion of consciousness.

It will begin to match what I now feel, my newfound level of vibration.

As that beautiful saying goes,

When we raise our vibration and expand our consciousness, the whole Universe rises up to meet us here.

It has to, and it will.

And so people, things, and events will begin to be rearranged to mirror this new and higher level of vibration and consciousness.

This I know.

…Until There Is Chaos Again

And I also know that before I get too comfortable here in my new “home,” God will push me out the door and into the next reconfiguration.

And from experience I know that it will not take long.

Usually, it doesn’t even take long enough for me to catch my breath. For me to make myself at home and comfortable in this new space.

Obviously, this is my perception, but I often feel that Spirit is pushing me forward too fast. Too hard.

In truth though, it is all happening according to a Divine perfect pattern and design.

And maybe, with this in mind, perhaps this time around, I’ll make it a point to enjoy this sense of feeling good more than I have before.

Historically, I have got myself busy moving once I felt that moving is easy and effortless.

Once the momentum has been built, I usually want to ride that tidal wave as fast as I can.

So to get as far as I can.

I am realizing now, as I am writing these words, that this has not been a conscious choice on my part.

But rather it has been the lack of ability to make a conscious choice.

Maybe this time, I can make the conscious choice to come to a stop.

To really revel and celebrate being here without wanting to get somewhere else as quickly as possible.

Knowing myself, I will probably have forgotten about this tomorrow, but just catching this insight is new to me, so who knows?

The Three Pillars Of Trust

All this to say that I love how Spirit moves me and moves through me.

I love how I am being guided, moved, and led in such a beautiful way.

And I love that I, over the years, have cultivated the habit of Listening and Obeying.

That I have learned to tune into that still, small voice that is whispering words of wisdom and guidance.

Sometimes softly, sometimes very loudly.

But I am so grateful that I have learned to listen to it and that I have learned to heed it.

To obey it.

Not question it. Not second guess it.

Not giving too much power to the ego’s attempt to make me see reason, logic, or what is probable and possible.

I was recently asked, and maybe I’ll include that talk in this post, but I was recently asked to do a talk on indecision and procrastination and even more so on how to overcome these.

And what came through in that particular talk was that we first of all need to cultivate a deep and profound unconditional trust in the Allness, Benevolence, and Perfection of Spirit.

These are the Three Pillars of Trust.

We need to trust, even when our eyes do not, even when our eyes cannot see, that God is always good and that whatever is and whatever is happening is just perfect.

That even this messiness, this turbulence, this chaos, is totally working for our Highest Good.

And second of all, we need to learn to listen to and obey that still small voice. However, it speaks to us.

It is the voice of Spirit. It is the voice of our future self.

And it knows where we need to go, when we need to go, and what we need to do to keep allowing for ever greater and grander expressions of ourselves to emerge.

But for all its infinite wisdom, that still small voice will not do us any good unless we choose to listen to it.

Unless we choose to obey it.

To the very best of our ability.

Life Is For Us - Always And Forever

So really what we are being invited to do is to cultivate a profound inner knowing that All is Well.

Life is not always easy. It is not always logical. It doesn’t always make sense.

But nonetheless, it is always for us.

And this still small voice is Life, God, Spirit, the Universe, or whatever, calling, beckoning, nudging us along the path toward our most great, grand, and luminous expression.

With our physical senses, we cannot perceive this path.

But the still small voice - it knows.

It knows.

It knows what our finite minds fail to grasp and comprehend.

And so rather than trusting our physical senses, we are wise to trust that still small voice and give it permission to guide and lead and move us forward.

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Life Is For Us - Now, Always, And Forever

Life truly is Good. And Life truly is for us.

Now, Always and Forever.

Even in the midst of this.

Oh, for all the turbulence and messiness of this path, I so love walking it.

I so love being on this magical journey and adventure.

I so love who I and where I am. And I so love who I am becoming.

I so love where I am going.

Thank you, God, for putting me on this beautiful path of eternal expansion and progression.

Thank you, God, that I get to be your humble servant and instrument.

I am so grateful for how much my life has changed and for what my life is increasingly becoming about.

I have a dear friend whom I talk to a couple of times every week, and almost every time we speak, one of us always feels compelled to speak the words:

“God/Life is good”.

And Spirit truly is good.

I am not saying that everything always feels good. But the nature of God is benevolent.

And not only is God benevolent. God is benevolence.

And doing the inner work of trusting that, even when in the midst of turbulence, chaos, and seeming dissolution - that is how we get to move through this messiness -

with a modicum of peace, joy, and harmony.

Because when we know that Life is Good, then rather than the messiness becoming our unfiltered experience, it merely becomes a disturbance on the surface.

And as I, right at this moment, am looking out over the ocean, watching the mighty waves come crashing in, I am reminded that underneath even the most storm-ridden ocean, deep down, there is nothing but peace, tranquility, and serenity.

The same is true for us, if only we can find a way to dive deep into the essence of who and what we are.

Deep down, there is nothing but peace.

All is Well, so Peace Be Still.

As always, thank you so much for joining me. I am grateful that we get to walk this path together, side by side.

If this post resonated with you, I would love to hear from you, so feel free to leave a comment or start a chat.

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As always, I bless, bless, bless your day, and I bless, bless, bless your way, in the absolute knowing that All Is Well ✨ Something Wonderful Is Always Happening ✨ Everything Is Working For Our Highest Good ✨ Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Is Always Happening ✨

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This is such a beautiful journey we get to be on, and I am very grateful that I am blessed enough to be walking this wonderful path to eternal growth, expansion, and unfolding.

From time to time, I have compared this journey to a roller coaster ride, and it truly is, with its ups and downs, swerves, loops, drops, turns, and twists.

And just like with a roller coaster, especially one that we get on for the very first time, there is always that beautiful element of surprise, where we never quite know what will happen next. All we can do is hang on and enjoy the ride to the best of our ability, trusting that whatever twist or turn we are tossed into at any given moment, it is all part of the totality of the ride. And that we will arrive safe and secure at the end of the ride.

In other words, we get to trust that All is Well, even when our senses may be telling us otherwise.

And this is how it is with this Path of freedom and awakening. We never know when something will arise in our consciousness. We never know when we will be moved into a challenging space. Nor when we will emerge from those challenging spaces.

In other words, this path is beautifully paved with an eternal element of surprise.

Since a few days back I am finding myself in a particularly messy space. I know I have been saying this for like the last year and a half or so, that I have never ever before in my life, been in such a transformational space as I am in now.

And it just continues, it just keeps on expanding. So many old, obsolete, and outdated structures are crumbling and dissolving - both within me and before my eyes. So many small and limited perceptions and beliefs are coming to the surface that I may release and let them go.

There have been times when I have truly enjoyed the messiness, and there have been times when I didn’t enjoy moving through it just as much.

My current experience is a very turbulent one with a deep sense of discomfort and unpleasantness, where it seems every fiber of my being, every bone and structure in my body, is squirming and wriggling, trying to get away from that which is happening, and my mind is racing to come up with how to fix this, to make it all smooth and nice again.

In my heart and soul, I know that All is Well, and that Something Wonderful is happening, but my surface mind does not like or enjoy this experience at all. And I am constantly finding myself tossed between judgments and opinions, by a sense of heaviness and a sense of hopelessness - like this is not ever going to change, and a sense of gratitude for the tremendous healing that is happening right now.

I can only imagine that this is how the caterpillar must feel as it begins to dissolve and disintegrate, how it begins to turn into a complete mess of goo to allow for the butterfly to emerge.

The caterpillar as it closes itself off in that cocoon, and after a period of time, new cells begin to appear within - the cells of the butterfly. Because the butterfly is not an upgraded or up-leveled version of the caterpillar, the butterfly is actually a completely new being.

And so when these new cells begin to emerge within the caterpillar, the caterpillar’s immune system actually takes them as foreign and hostile and begins to kill these new cells off.

And so there is a period of fighting and battling, where the old is literally fighting for its survival within the caterpillar, doing everything in its power to defend its previous state. But as the war wages on, the new cells begin to proliferate at such a rate that they completely overrun the caterpillar’s defensive system, and the caterpillar begins to dissolve. It turns into goo, and out of that goo, the butterfly emerges.

And that is how I feel right now.

I feel as though who I used to be, is literally dissolving before my eyes to give birth to a new iteration of me.

As there are others involved in this, I will not disclose all details, but much of this has to do with the beautiful financial healing/transformation that is happening in my life, where I, in perfect alignment with my intention to live a simple, peaceful, and quiet life, unbound by time and place, am being moved into a financial structure that is based on passive and residual income.

So, what this means is that I am moving myself out of the space of trading time for money, so to allow for a greater sense of freedom and independence to emerge into my life.

Moving here to Spain was a beautiful step toward that as I had to release and let go of some old structures that had been around for many years but that I seemed unable to transcend while back in Sweden.

And once here, because I needed to be there for our kids to such an extent, I haven’t really been working since we got here. As I shared in my last post, I have been more like a full-time stay-at-home dad than anything else.

And even though going from full-time work to full-time father and home caretaker was a roller coaster ride in and of itself, and even though I have begun to infuse my life with a space of creativity, even though I have once again begun to move myself into a space of building, much of my time is still devoted and needed to tend to the kids and their needs.

However, as we are making some changes in a few months, our finances need to be upleveled. In short, the passive income that I enjoy today is not enough as we make these changes and begin a new chapter of our lives.

So expansion needs to happen, which is beautiful, and I love that invitation to grow and move farther along toward my intention to live that simple, peaceful, and quiet life, as well as my other high-priority intention to be a greater teacher and healer than I have ever imagined.

So far, so good, right? God is beautifully moving, pushing, shoving me into the next version of who and what I am.

Now, I believe I have shared before that one of the most rigid and persistent mental beliefs and structures I have is the notion that “If I don’t do it, is it not going to get done”.

I mean, I have lived my entire life with the belief that it is up to me to make everything happen. I am a doer. As I’ve shared before, I am a builder, and things don’t just build themselves, right?

But here I am, now finding myself being pushed into expansion, that even has a time frame, an expiration date to it. There is actually a date on the calendar when our income needs to be at a certain level.

And yet, there is not much I can DO to make that happen, as this is not in the realm of doing. And even if it was in the realm of doing, I would only have like two-three hours each day of more or less uninterrupted space for me to be creative. To build.

I could certainly carve out an extra hour here and there, and sometimes I do, but still. Even as I m writing these words, I can hear the ego screaming; “There is not just enough time”.

And so, it is relatively easy for me to see and realize that this expansion will not happen in the realm of doing. Even though every fiber of my being, every cell and my entire nervous system is screaming that “I have to do something” - I realize that there is nothing really that I can do.

Which, in and of itself, obviously tends to add to the unpleasantness of this experience. I mean, in the past, I have always been able to rely on my resourcefulness and my ability to take big action, to roll up my sleeves and get the job done whenever needed.

But this time, there is no big action I can take. I can not roll up my sleeves and get the job done because there is no job to get done (in the physical dimension, at least).

So here I am with years and years of habitual ways of being and moving through life, ways that clearly do not apply here but that are doing a very good job of making themselves heard.

They are loud. They are boisterous, they are screaming, kicking, and shouting. They are impossible to ignore, as they have invaded close to every cell in my body. And so even when I am not hearing them, I am still feeling the sense of stress, the sense of urgency.

But as Rev. Michael Bernard Beckwith sometimes says, “We can’t use an old map for new territory”. In other words, I cannot rely on who I used to be and how I used to move through life to move me through this expansion.

The caterpillar doesn’t just grow wings and begin to fly as a butterfly, but the caterpillar ceases to exist so that the butterfly may emerge.

And so these last few days, and I honestly don’t know what initiated this space a few days ago, or at least I don’t remember. But these last few days have been incredibly challenging. My nervous system is in uproar.

I literally feel squeezed, I feel smaller, I feel heavy. I have been experiencing apathy and something akin to indifference.

It is even affecting my sleep, and that has never happened before. I have always slept like a child. I put my head on the pillow at night, and within seconds, I am fast asleep unless I need to get up to the bathroom, which rarely happens (maybe a tad too personal, so forgive me if that made you feel uncomfortable 😉), I sleep all through the night.

And I rarely had any disturbing dreams. But now I wake up most nights, not always remembering what I had dreamt, but still aware of having dreamt something unpleasant and disturbing. Not nightmares per se, but still disturbing dreams.

I am irritable, I get easily annoyed, and I don’t want to be around people, I don’t even want to have anything to do with anyone. Sometimes, even my own family.

Even responding to emails, questions, and messages requires an effort, and sometimes even too much of an effort, which means that the number of answered emails and messages grows longer and longer - obviously only adding to the stress.

I, so desire that I could somehow withdraw from the world for a period of time. That I could press pause and go into hiding or hibernation for a while.

From this perspective, I am very happy that I have scaled back on my 1-1 sessions. At least I don’t have to show up for someone who is paying me to show up in a particular way on a regular basis.

But I sort of get why the caterpillar closes itself off from the world, why it weaves that cocoon. My whole system is shouting, “Leave me alone. Let me deal with this by myself”.

But I am in the world, and I need to stay in the world. So, I am in the process of finding a balance between being here for those who depend on me and being here for myself so that I can do the job that I am being invited to do.

And this job, it is all done in consciousness. Consciousness always precedes form, and so that is where I need to do the work. First and foremost, treating my mind to release and let go of the notion that it is up to me to make this happen.

If there is anything nature teaches us, it is that nature doesn’t make anything happen, and yet most things in nature grow, unfold, and evolve in such a beautiful way.

The seed doesn’t make the tree or the flower grow. Nothing in nature is making the seasons come and go. No one is making the sun rise and set.

The chicken doesn’t make the egg unfold into the chicken, and on, and on, and on, and on, and on.

And this is what I need to remind myself of over and over and over again. All is Well, Something Wonderful Is Happening, Perfect Unfolding is Happening - Now.

And I don’t have to make any of this happen - whatever my previous tendencies and beliefs may have been. What is mine to do is to simply allow that which already is happening, to happen.

In the Infinite Mind this is already done, and through the design and orchestration of the One, it is all happening perfectly - as long as I stay out of the way.

This actually reminds me of an experiment that was done by the Spindrift Institute.

They perform all these spiritual and metaphysical scientific experiments, you know, double and triple blind kind of experiments.

In this particular experiment, they had three “batches” of plants, all planted and raised in the exact same environment.

In the first batch, they had people come in and water and tend to the plants to make sure that they had the best possible physical environment. These plants grew beautifully and as expected.

In the second batch, they had the people tending to the plants held a high vision for these plants. They were to see and feel how the plants grew strong and vibrant. And these plants grew something like twice as large and strong and twice as fast as the first batch of plants.

The people that tended to the third batch were instructed not to see or vision anything at all. All they were told to do (except for watering and those kinds of things) were to repeat to themselves, “Thy will be done”.

And these plants, without being tended to differently, without anyone holding a big and mighty vision for them, grew even faster, stronger, and more vibrant than the second batch.

There is enormous power in cultivating a deep sense of Trust and Surrender and of giving the hows, the manifestation, over to this Benevolent Loving Presence that is all there is.

It knows exactly what needs to happen, when it needs to happen, and how it needs to happen for the highest possibility to come forth.

It knows. We don’t.

It knows - I don’t.

And so these last few days, I have been leaning heavily into the question: “If I knew that All is Well, what would I do, how would I move forward”?

Which has beautifully led me to Jesus’s words where he said “Rejoice, for I have overcome the world”.

We always want to be loving and kind toward ourselves. Always, and even more so when life gets intense. Pushing ourselves often arises out of a sense of fear, a sense of lack and separation from the good we wish to experience, whichever only serves to check, delay and obstruct the manifestation of that very good.

And so a golden rule is to never move out of fear, but rather in spite of fear. We want inspiration and joy to lead, not fear and a sense of “should”.

And so these last few days, I have done absolutely nothing in terms of work, in terms of building. But all I have done is to, during those two to three hours that are more or less my own to preside over, watch Two and a Half Men (which is my go-to series when I need a serious pick-me-up or a good laugh).

I have watched that series more times than I can count and I still love it. It truly makes me laugh, which is a powerful antidote to lower-vibration thought forms.

So I have put that on, I have treated myself to ice cream, and I have taken long walks out in the sun along the beach.

My mind is screaming that this is crazy. That I am insane and completely irresponsible. That I am not fully grasping the gravity of the situation. I need to fix this, and I need to fix it now.

Nothing new. I have heard all this before, and hey, I am still here, right? 😉

But for the new to emerge, the old needs to be released and let go of. And so the invitation here is for me to go deeper into trusting that this is happening now.

I don’t have to make it happen, it is happening. I don’t have to micromanage or figure out how it is to happen, but simply trust that it is happening and to the best of my ability, Relax, Rejoice and let it happen.

Like I once heard someone say “Happiness is my job”, or as Jesus said “Rejoice, for I have overcome the world”.

As illogical as it seems, staying in the higher vibrations of joy, peace, harmony, and possibility - is our primary job when it comes to manifestation. Because it is when we are hanging out up there that we allow that which is already happening to happen with ease and grace.

Logic and reason, the Ego, would have us believe that we need to take big action, but any action taken out of fear or a sense of separation only affirms the separation. Thus any action taken from those lower vibrations actually delays and obstructs the manifestation.

Whereas action taken from a space of joy, gratitude, inspiration, and peace really facilitates and allows the demonstration to happen quicker and with a whole lot more ease and grace.

I am not saying that this is easy. I would be the first in line to say that this extremely difficult and hard.

The ego truly is a trickster. It truly is throwing everything it has got against me right now. I am being bombarded with all those reasons as to why I need to get myself up and do something.

But it seems the time has now come for me to, perhaps, or perhaps not, once and for all release and let go of the notion that I need to make it happen.

This is a beautiful invitation to go ever deeper into trust and surrender - into Thy Will Be Done. Not my will, but Thy will.

So I do what I can to Relax, Rejoice, and simply let God have its way with me. One moment at a time. One minute at a time. One Day at a time.

All is Well here. Something Wonderful is Happening now. Everything is Working for My (Our) Highest good. Perfect Preparation and Unfolding is Happening - Now, Always and Forever.

It is done and it is happening now. I let it, I allow it, I surrender to it.

So it is, and so shall it be.

Amen.

As always, thank you so much for joining me. I am grateful that we get to walk this path together, side by side. If this post resonated with you, I would love to hear from you, so feel free to leave a comment or start a chat.

Until we meet again, I invite us all to hold the world and all beings in a space of boundless peace and unconditional love.

As always, I bless, bless, bless your day, and I bless, bless, bless your way, in the absolute knowing that All Is Well ✨ Something Wonderful Is Always Happening ✨ Everything Is Working For Our Highest Good ✨ Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Is Always Happening ✨

Namaste 🙏🏾 💜

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